YMonday, November 1, 2010' 5:50 AM
yesterday its was really2 hurtishh day for me .thats the why i said im scared to fall in love and became like this . i wish kutek is nt that type of person . cukup la aku kene bustard slalu . cukup . sakit haty ..she's a heartbreaker .playing with my feelings . give high hopes on me.. you think im what ? tissue? dh suke dh cinte, go .biler dh mcm ni..sekelip mata kaw berubah jady straight :( .YOU SAID YOU WERE A PL . YOU'RE NT STRAIGHT . YOU CAN'T GO WITH GUYS .but whyy?? asl kaw tibe2 straight ? tkde prasaan sayang kt aku? big question mark. sampai skrg aku msh tk boleh terima and tk percaye .kite argue psl , kaw tk tunjok kasih syg kt aku . you love words . no actions .bt high hopes. i told you before , ucukBABY , ii tknk words .i nk actions .she said , ok bby ! will do ! i promise !..but i nvr see any .. slalunye , aku yg pegang tangan kaw , luah kn prasaan cinte aku padanya . mata memandang mata . weird taw biler kite pandang mata ke mata . nnty mcm,mmg dh fall in love , fall lagy , her eyes makes me arghhh ..makin hari lepas, makin sayang dan cinte padanya . aku tk mintak ape2 dari kaw..sumer, keJUJURAN , keIKHLASAN , keSETIAAN , keSAYANGAN .itu empat aku mintak . aku tknk duit aku tknk ape2 yg mahal .cumer ..haty..ikhlas kalao nk bercinte . i told you im fragile . im good hearted . too soft.manje.tk maki org ,susah nk marah..im patient . last year i fall for ths girl,idk y the feelings come in e sudden.after get hopes for 5 months.she left me..we was dating:) and ya..wth.bfore that,i fall for her sister,after 4 months of lies.and im tired.thnx to e both if them.adek beradik bodek..:) cried badly like hell:)
previously and first time was with nat.PL caucasian girl.gived her everything .love,care and concern,understanding,kiss hugs and more..lastly.she text me.im sorry,find a better one..im nt an PL animore. wahh..heart broken..after that,mit an mix caucasian girl .very2 pretty.good hearted.she make me fall for her...lucky just 20 percent of love i gave.last i get this..IM SORRY FOR THE HOPES.IM NT READY.wahlao..amek kaw..heartbroken again.1st, ina fenty..we gadoh besar ,.i dun wanna whole school knws that she's straight .coz her fwens ,susah nk terima and her fwens hate LESBO ! .. we made a promise . kite mataair . biar lw prifile k :) .she says ok.one day,she told her classmate that shes a lesbo. im angry.bukan ape..takot nnty sampai2 kn sampai satu skola tau and she will get embarrass .im mad to e max.we made a promise once again, nt to told ani of her fwens. deal.after 2 days,she told her bestfwen that she;s lesbo,her bestfwen dislike it and ya,many people knws bout it...she made a big mistakes . and we argue many things.many things she break promise.and last i really cant take it. it was really painful . im hurt .very2..i asked for separate . actually i do tell her that im gonna separate with her.many times.but i didnt do it .till my heart breakes . into pieces.then im ready for separate . but i love her soo soo much .soo soo much.haa..lastly she go with a butch.wth.i hate that butch idk why . ina hurts by her.she hurt ina badly and many times.ina still hack care and go with her.WEIRD ! ..2nd was reena,13 days of r/s ,lastly she ask for break up .because i ask her for date . we get into r/s too fast.we just get to know each other for 2 days i think and we rush to r/s . but i dun feel e love and im nt into her attitude . she fucking flirt .imagine if im were ur gf , i was sitting at e same table with you. and im SL-ING with other butch,andros and pl's. hugging and kissing .infront of me..baru je mataair and she done that infront of me . you feel like an IDIOT there? do your feelings hurt ?heart broke into pieces? yes/no ??hahah.. i just ,asked her weather we can date first and then get into r/s?date with her.i dont play two party..only date with her.bt she can say pls dont,im nt ok with your decision. ..we can talk.but she just say this sentence.i dislike it and YOU GO UR OWN WAY,I GO MY OWN WAY . just that.i was begging her nt to separate.omg i failed !wtf.she says that with no feelings.omg i cried for many times.the 3rd one is yaya,deeply in love with her.she gave me high hopes.really2 high hopes.we were to near to r/s .almost there.last, i heard frm my fwens,they saw yaya outside ZIRCA with a GUY !.sitting on his lap.FWENS TOLD ME HER FACE WAS TOTALLY SHOCKED WHEN MY FWENS APPROACH HER.fwens asked her,who is this guy.she say her bf,another fwen ask her,she say bestfwen,other fwens ask her,she says family fwen..wth..lies lies lies..ive been trying to contact with her for many times.i understand shes working .bt when i tried to call and mxg her.she wont pick up for a long term.ive been patient and understanding .i love her deep in heart .she told me bfore she nt e club type. she a religious good girl..hmm..heart pain..painfull..!! betoll..4th, farah hani.she's very beautiful and extremley georgeous lady ! tall cute,pretty,outstanding personality.just the right type..we 1st get to know each other and jokes was on e day rp has football match . we happily joking and laughing..frm there she started to give me really2 high hopes..this is e extremley high hopes.after kissing hugging and more.she ofer me for an open r/s with her.on 4th august.i get really2 high hopes frm her.lastly she shit on me..i was been contacting her many times.she mia..for 2 weeks or more than she texted me sayying she cant b with me,im too good for her.she ask me to find someone bettar..wth..very2 pain...heartbroken again...im tired of typing . just like i say,sincer when you girls in love.and try nt to hurt that person badly .avoid that .:'( ..crying non stop..too tired la..im soo scared to fall in love .thats wt i told to every girls who date or in r/s with me..im careful bt lastly ii kene pretttt!..fuhh..awesome..!i give every of ther LOVE,SINCER,CARE AND CONCERN,GIFT FROM MY HEART,UNDERSTANDING.NT ONE IVE THINK OF FLIRTING OR LOVE OTHER PERSON EITHER THEM.NO..NT ONCE IVE EVER THINK OF THAT..ya this is life.bt asl sumer aku yg kene kn?? is like..tk fair..many more girls..bt i dint mention..too lazy to type..haha..hmm..ok till here and ya..i hope after this..no more hopes,no more lies,no more flirting , no more hurting deeply.:) and love me for who i am.:)
